Empty

I stand on the mountain top
Looking down at the cataclysm
I am no longer recognizable

Tick tock the time slides away
The fortune of youth no more
 Once strong now weak

My reign, my empire, my throne
It lays bare upon thy kinsmen
My crown tumbles to the ground

My fight is over, lay down my sword
Surrender my fate as I kneel
No love, no mercy, no hope

I gaze up at the stars
I spread my arms open
My soul grows dim

I am drowning in the sea
As the waves wash over me.
Such pity, such despair, such loneliness

© LAL

18 April 2016

Conqueror

Deep in my cave
Out of the thunder and rain
Strike a match
Light a flame in my heart
Now that it is over
My soul lays bare on the battlefield
All I have is the look in your eyes
When you took the final blow
Now it is calm as the last drop falls
I pick up my sword, leave the memories
Heading out into the unknown
Something wicked may come my way
There is saving to do-I am your conqueror

© LAL

12 April 2016

Soldier

I travel between the sane and insane, tripping over the fine line

I see the shadow of life once defined, twisted in the vine of destiny

Where do we go when we vanish into the mist?

How do we cross the magic river, what spell do we cast?

Should we chase the illusions of the love falls

Ai sonraun laik yu sonraun (My life is yours)

Osir keryon ste teina (Our souls are entwined)

Feva ona ai tombom, Ai hod yu in (Forever in my heart, I love you)

I am your soldier, sitting on the edge of night waiting to conquer

Should we go into battle, we shall build our kingdom

Lust flashes, drives my mind in circles every time you breathe

The rainstorm unleashes on our fate, our vision is clear

Hold onto the fire in your heart and lay with me on the battlefield

Ai sonraun laik yu sonraun (My life is yours)

Osir keryon ste teina (Our souls are entwined)

Feva ona ai tombom, Ai hod yu in (Forever in my heart, I love you)

I travel between sanity and insanity defending my state of mind

I will not be kept in the shadows, but I will live in the light

Live in the light

My vision is clear

You are the light and I am the soldier

Ai sonraun laik yu sonraun (My life is yours)

Osir keryon ste teina (Our souls are entwined)

Feva ona ai tombom, Ai hod yu in (Forever in my heart, I love you)

LAL 3/2016 ©

Life came too easily.

Life came too easily. She was like the Mississippi, long, deep still and powerful. On the surface she lived life with carefree abandon, yet like the river, she either rolled around the obstacle or rushed over it. She wasn't a truly lost soul but one without direction. Life was never hard, only inconvenient. Looking out over time, she often ponder what would become of her in the surreal life she had created. But she knew it wasn’t surreal, she was just lost or too lazy to change it. She resisted the change that was inevitable. She either chose to ignore it or charged it like a ram. She preferred to ignore it.

Like time, change is a continuum always moving forward. Change may be slowed or halted for awhile but like time it will move on. Change may take eons or as quickly as a blink of an eye to happen but it will continue to evolve. She hated change, especially when she could not control the change. It interfered with her pattern in life, unbalanced her sense of being. The only good change was the one she created; the one she could she mold and control. She liked control. She like the freedom it brought. The juxtaposition to her control to the things that controlled her, boxed her in and she became stagnant. She ignore it. She floated on her inner tube down the spring run in life.

The South, in the summer is hot, humid and sweltering. Reality to her was like the hot southern days of summer, too much heat. Being a grown up was work which caused too much heat. Too much heat. Cool springs and daydreaming was not work, it was the pleasure of existing. Why would anyone would want to endure that heat? She pondered. She floated. She daydreamed. She was lost.

She had a choice, Live or float? Daydream or steer her destiny? Change was upon her and it was hers to control. Was she like the Mississippi and had the power to endure the heat? Would she choose to fortify herself for endeavors of life? Floating down the spring run only moves in direction, is this the only direction she wanted? She pondered. She awoke.

© LAL 2016

Fire Light

I sit alone by the fire light watching
Flames flickering, ever reaching
The music gently rocks my heart and
A remembered scent of you soothes my soul.

We are a time gone past
A future never told
We were haunting and mystical
We were autumn and spring.

Firelight dances across my room
I see you in the shadows on my walls
Candle light illuminates the darkness and
I long to touch your face

Close my eyes I still feel your breath against my cheek
I reached out for you and in a flicker you were gone
Winter falls outside my window, covering traces of you
Flames quietly burn, as I desire your passion again

We are a time gone past
A future never told
We were haunting and mystical
We were autumn and spring.

The fire grows dim as the sun rises
I hear the song of another day
I look for you one more time
And silently the flames fade away.



©LAL 2007

Edge of the Universe

Kiss me like we are standing on the edge of the universe

Hold me as if our eternity began with stars

Listen to my heart beat as you rest your head on my chest

Let me whisper in your ear of all the things that are in my soul

Hold me close as we drift off to sleep on a bed of star dust

Hold my hand as we hop a train to the City of New Orleans

Listen to the of train wheels as they roll across the steel tracks

City lights pass by as we roll along under the blanket of the night

Star watching as we hold us close in the summer night breeze

Jasmine fills the air as ramble down the tracks along the muddy river

Pontchartrain calls out as we strolled down Toulouse street

We drank chicory coffee from the du Monde, ate beignets

As we sat under the streets light in Liberty Square, holding close

Watching lovers walk by lost in their dream state, moving around the moon

Slip off to sleep as we listen to jazz float through the windows of our in room

Kiss me baby like we standing on the edge of the universe

Cruise along the highways holding hands under starlight

Kiss me baby like we standing on the edge of the universe

Because we are our tomorrow and our today, hold tight

On this journey of daydreams and night dreams with no regrets

Kiss me baby like we standing on the edge of the universe

Kiss me baby like we standing on the edge of the universe

© LAL 2016

Faded Gray

I saw you standing on the sidewalk in your faded gray

I turned and walked the other way

It's too soon to walk past and not touch you

I stand on the outside watching us fade away

Hoping there was something you were going to say

Why did you put me on that shelf?

Why did you turn off the light, leave me in the dark?

I was once your favorite and now just forgotten

Now my heart only rages for what we once were

You left me empty and alone, all I do is roam

You will never silence my voice in your head

It will follow you down to your last breath

You will never forget my touch across your skin

You will never lose the desire of me

Dreams, are all that you are hanging onto, dreams

The wind howls your name and I stand in the cold

Longing for your heart to keep me warm

Ashes float down to cover me from the fire storm

Of your love, I gave all of me to you and you left

I lost my way home leaving me in this dark madness

I saw you standing on the sidewalk in your faded gray

You were haunting, the past, no future to hold

Time strengthens my resolve, walked past and no longer

Needing to touch you, now you are a ghost of my memory

Of a burning craving for your love, a fading ember.

You will never silence my voice in your head

It will follow you down to your last breath

You will never forget my touch across your skin

You will never lose the desire of me

Dreams, are all that you are hanging onto, dreams

© LAL 2/2016

Wounded Hearts

Wounded hearts pain left on the floor
Open the windows, open the doors
I need to fly away and feel the sun on me
You standing on the hill if only you could see

You left me broken and alone
Had you not told me, I would have never known
My world spins out of control looking for you
I would follow you down into the depth of my dreams
Only to awake to a cold winter day, all painted gray
This life we lead was only a part of a bigger scheme

You left me for reasons unknown
Waiting for time to pass, I stood by the phone
You never called, I cried to leave this the doom
I turn around and I moved on to another room
How can we pretend it never happened
That movie played a thousands times, broken and afraid

Well no more, no more tears, no more wounds
We were all broken, it's time to mend the pieces
Open the windows, open the doors and set us free
Open the windows, open the doors and let our souls be
Wounded hearts no longer, nothing to leave on the floor

Open the windows, open the doors and set us free

LAL 2/1/16 © 

13th Street

Do you remember when we were young
Cruising downtown under the 13th street lights
We were running wild, laughing into the wind
Listening to the radio belting out our tunes
We were rebels, we were young, we were free

I remember your face as we sat in the diner
Drinking coffee and you look moon struck
We were the stars of our movie, playing the parts
We promised never to let go, tied by star light
We were rebels, we were young, we were free

Sitting in Westwood Park beneath the swaying pines
I took pictures of you in my mind, I would never be alone
It was just like a play without a script, words unspoken
It was just a free fall; it was like rushing streams
We were rebels, we were young, we were free

Cruising downtown under the 13th street lights
We were running wild, laughing into the wind
Listening to the radio belting out our tunes
We were rebels, we were young, we were free

Laying on the grass on the Union lawn, soaking up the sun
Daydreaming of the life we could have, not looking back
Drifting off in the aroma of you, we are safe, and life was fun
I memorize your laughter to brighten up my darkest days
We were rebels, we were young, we were free

Midnight runs down 13th street, streetlights shimmering
Holding hands, telling secrets, listening to the tires roll

Here we are now, cruising down our twilight lanes
Laughing, running wild in our hearts, we are braver now
We are stronger, still tied yet far apart but no matter
The rain was chilling but our souls were hot and warmed us
We were rebels, we were young, we were free

Cruising downtown under the 13th street lights
We were running wild, laughing into the wind
Listening to the radio belting out our tunes
We were rebels, we were young, we were free

Yes, we were rebels, we were young, we were free
We were reckless, we were fearless when we were young
Rebels to the world, living for the moment, racing the wind
Memories of when we were young and free
We were rebels, we were young, we were free
Under the lights of 13th street




LAL 12/24/2015

© LAL 2016

Ancient History

By request it is time to post another musing.

ANCIENT HISTORY

         Ancient history you and I

Destined to repeat ourselves

Old mistakes return to haunt us

No mystery to follow.

         A long time ago you told me your secrets

I never told you mine

You whispered into my heart

And stole my soul  

No future history will we make

No time to mend the yesterday

You call me now with aged words

I continue to fall over again

As if yesterday were today

Only you leave me in the mist of memories

The past has returned to destroy us

I should have never remembered

          And you should have never told me

Now I go into the shadows of the night.

          No future history will we make

No time to mend the yesterday

You are left with brittle memories

Alone in a past returned

Only an illusion of what could have been

Listening for a voice never to be heard.

Standing in the doorway

A breeze whispered your name

My heart ached for you

Knowing that you would never come again.

          No future history will we make

No time to mend the yesterday

Ancient history you and I

A passion lost

Gently we fade away

Leaving our memory in the wind.                 

 ©LAL

© LAL 2016