Sunday, February 16, 2014

Live, Love and Joy

Living, love and joy. Three very powerful things that influence your life.

I try to live each day with purpose and meaning. I believe I am successful on varying degrees.

I strongly believe in having  joy in your life, to give joy and to find the good in world even as ugly as it can be. I follow the rule about no negative thoughts because that will ultimately will be the folly of joy. I have to remind myself daily that when I speak negatively to myself that it takes the joy out of my heart. I have a have a wonderful friend who was in the "negative self speak" and we have been working together to keep in the positive side of our selves.  In has brought joy to both of us. It is a good thing.

Love---wow that is the big one. Because without it you can't have the other two. The love of family, the love of children, love of friends, the love of humanity, the love of pets, for some the love of God, and love of being in love. I have been so blessed to have all of those loves and continue to have them. Love is powerful for me. I give it easily but receive it with resistance. I read an article a while back discussing the reluctance of receiving love. Basically the author spoke about having the ability of acceptance of the love given, not feel guilty about it. To remove the stigma of ego and be humble to the receiving of love. For that lent to loving yourself and giving love more freely. Which to me, brings more joy into your heart. I am still working on the acceptance of love, it is a tall hill for me to climb.

For me, love is my most powerful influence in my life. I have lived long enough to understand that the love of power and money are negative influences and the more important thing is the love of people and family. I have had 3 great loves in my life and I cherish each one. Each one has enriched me more than I could ever tell them. I appreciate them and thank them for coming into my life. I only hope that in some small way I have given something back to them. I have had two wonderful women give me the ability to have love and joy in my heart, my mother and grandmother. I will never be able to express my gratitude to them for loving me and showing what it means to love people.

Oh as a side note, I don't have to like you but I do have the capacity to love you.

So live, love and have joy in your heart!!

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Random Thoughts

I have decided that I obsess over my random thoughts. The problem is that when I have a really good random thought, I forget it before I can write it down.

Memory loss is such a bummer. Lord, help me because I think of some really cool shit!! Funny stuff too but I can't get it down on paper.

Dreams--they are a true inspiration of randomness and I have bizarre dreams. There are times the dreams are so good that I can pick up where I left off the following night.

I am making steps in my sugar recovery--small ones but steps none the less. I still have wicked cravings and withdrawal symptoms. Just an update.

Whiskey--I'm thinking I may become a whiskey drinker and give up Gin--thoughts?

Kissing--a fun recreational sport. Should we make it an Olympic event?

The Cross Florida Barge Canal--should we revisit this as a viable option to make South Florida it's own state?

How awesome is the SEC?!! Now we just need Auburn to pull out victory. Sorry that our ex-Gator coach is leaving Louisville for Texas.

I could babble on for quite sometime, but I just saw a shinny thing and must follow it.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014


Well, here it is folks, 2014. Lots of new prospects on the horizon for this new year. In 2013 I gave up caffeine, I drink gallons of water now. Oh how I miss my high octane soda!!

In the year of 2014 I am going to give up food. Not all food but the bad food I have been eating for the past year. Mainly sugar. You see,  I am a sugar addict. I don't do drugs just sugar and it controls my life. Here is the juxtaposition I am in, for those of you that know me, I don't like being controlled but I allow sugar to control me thus the addition.

Now, I do realize that this is not going to be an overnight process. It will take a certain degree of time to break the sugar cycle I have allowed myself to get into. My goal is that by this time next year that I have conquered the sugar beast and I am eating better. Who knows I might drop a pound or two in the process. The biggest hurdle for me to overcome the sugar dependence is eliminating the daily rationalizations I have for dripping into the sugar bowl. Time and perseverance is my strongest benefactor.

I was born in an odd year so maybe an even year will prove to a positive force in my life. I have always been partial to even numbers as I never knew what to do with the odd one left over. On side note, this past birthday has a been a particularly hard one for me to accept. I am not sure why as I have never been worried about my age, but this one really hit me hard. It must be the fact that aging does happen and I am not the wild 20 year old I once was; that I could go out dance and flirt and feel good about myself. Time does not stand still.......

I don't believe in new year resolutions because they just set you up to fail. I don't make them, I make attainable goals. Therefore if I can give up all of the other bad habits I had (except cussing), I can give up sugar. Don't wish me luck, wish me support!!