Sunday, December 1, 2013

Possibilities and Fear

Possibilities. They are open doors to the seekers of adventure. All one has to do is walk thorough and make discoveries. The trick of the matter is choosing the right possibility, however life is a gamble even if you play it safe the chest.

I have always been a safe player. Mainly out of fear and fear of getting in trouble (especially when it came to my mother). Fear is a huge resistor to possibilities, and I succumb to it every day. I truly dislike this cage of fear. Rejection is my biggest fear monger. I have this fear if I walk through the possibility door of openness, I will be rejected for who I am.  Now I have a missed opportunity. Damn the luck!!

Possibilities. Some doors are very easy to walk though and full the adventure. I have had many wonderful adventures. Family and friends are an adventure in which I could expound upon for too many paragraphs. The bigger point is walking though those doors that fear lurks around like shadows. Fear is frequently related to the specific behaviors of escape and avoidance, and I like to avoid rejection.

I survive on praise and appreciation. That is why I end up stopping what I have started because of the fear of rejection and the lack of praise (this blog, Mrs. Puddle, etc). Yes, yes, I know what you are thinking…”geesh, what an egotist!” but it is not the ego, but the reaffirmation that I have overcome rejection by the way of praise. It is not that I can’t do the work but the fear of not having the work appreciated.  This fear of rejection has kept me from being a writer, a painter, a film or playwright or any person of substance. I have lived in this walled room that I don’t even know who I am. It becomes so cliché after a time that I even bore myself. 
But I digress…

Possibilities. I may have to walk through the door to end fear and on to better adventures.

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Post Interlude

It seems that I have been peer pressured into waking up my muse to start posting again on the blog. She is hard to wake up and lord help me when she fully awake!! I will not be responsible for what that crazy bitch will say~

The other news in Solace land is that Mrs. Puddle has moved. The old girl got tired of hanging out with me and set up shop on her very own Facebook page. Go check her out. Search for Maudell Puddle.

Ok well, I must go to sleep now, someone has to support my crazy muse. Until later~~

Sunday, April 21, 2013

I am me, the universe and you

Ok I am back!! Not sure how long I'll hang around but I thought I would share one of my new favorite songs. Just watch and listen to the video. Hope you enjoy.

Says a lot............

Friday, January 25, 2013


I am taking a break from the blog for a while. Too much has happened in the past couple of weeks that for me to put any effort into the blog. I am not sure when I will get back to it,  if at all. Thanks to my few followers, your support has been deeply appreciated.