Saturday, February 20, 2010

Interlopers

Short and sweet. Have you ever wanted do something that you enjoyed but friends or family decide it would better if they did it right along with you? I have gotten myself in that barrel of pickle juice. You see,there are places we love to go and enjoy. For the first few years we just alone, well I got it in my head why not share the fun. Guess what? People actually wanted to go! And low and behold it has turned into this yearly event. Now don't get me wrong, I love tradition and family but this has turned into work. I know, my selfish demon is poking it's ugly head out but I can't help. This is it, I say, no more National Lampoon Vacations for me!

Friday, February 19, 2010

Parents Lost

I was reading some posts of friends on a social board and the conversation was talking about parents lost. Man did that hit home with me. Whew....brought up some buried emotions. It has been 5 years since my mother past away and for the first years I had become OK with it but over the past year or so it has been a lot harder than I ever imagined it would be. I am not trying to be morose but I really miss her more than I can express. Sometimes I feel like weeping for hours but I know that will not change her passing so I just "man up" and move on. (I just so hate all that psycho babble).

Losing a parent can be quiet devastating. Even at my age I feel so child like when I let myself feel those emotions of missing her. I guess the adage is true, you will always be your parents child. This is the lesson learned...never let an opportunity pass you by to tell your parents that you love and need them. I wish I had said it more.

This is really hard to type without letting those emotions bubble to the top. But maybe this is what I needed to do, finally put the feelings into words.

The two most important people in my life were my mother and grandmother. I miss them each day but I am eternally grateful for having me in their lives.

I now put this to rest.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Quandary

I am in quandary, on the horns of a dilemma as it were. I started this blog so I could have a place to put a voice to the problems at hand. A place here I could let out all the things that are bottled up and then let it all go. Moving on to a better place, (you know all that psycho-babble). I figured it would be the screen and myself that shared those moments. Now my quandary, it is kind of lonesome, to be here with my thoughts. So, I sought out a friend of mine and said, "Hey, I started a blog. Drop by and let me know what you think." Now, I am sitting here wondering why I did that when my intent was to have a place of self solace. As with a bolt of lighting, it struck me. I needed some kind of affirmation to those feelings and thoughts. So everyday I check to see if there had been a comment or maybe a new follower, but to no avail. So, I have concluded that I am just pitiful!
Then I stop, shake my head and realize that not only do I not understand people but I really don't understand myself.

And this my fiends make life interesting!!!

BS

Good morning! Another day here at the institute of BS.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Annoys Me

It seems I have made it to day two of my blogging experience. So far so good. Today wasn't a bad day, went back to work after having the holiday off. I managed to get some things done but not all of what I wanted to accomplish. There is always tomorrow.

So do I have a soapbox today? Of course, why ask such silly a question. Once again I just don't understand people. Why is it that the people who screw up and should be fired end up getting promoted, whereas, those of us who follow the rules, do a good job, loyal to the company, are educated and prove worthy, don't get SQUAT!!! This just annoys the royal piss out of me. Yes, I know I shouldn't let it bother me but it does. You know all that psycho-babble about letting stuff go that you can't control is just horse crap. We are human beings with emotions and sometimes the stuff just pisses us off!!! Then I stop, shake my head and realize, I just don't understand people.

Another thing that just annoys me to no end is a mess that people will walk by and not clean up!!! Why is that? They see the mess and will even make comment about the mess and just keep walking. LAZY!!! That is what it boils down to, pure laziness. OMG, it takes more energy to avoid cleaning up the mess than it would just to clean the mess up. I mean come on people, clean it up!! Then I stop, shake my head and realize, I just don't understand people.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Stupid Again

I was at the local grocery store just moments ago and witnessed another case of stupid. An older middle aged woman was being assisted by one of the baggers from the store. A polite young man was dutifully putting her bags of groceries in her back seat as she stood watching with a scowl on her aged face. He made a innocuous light hearted comment to her as she got in the drivers seat. She unceremoniously dismissed him with a snarled lip and a wave of her hand. I stood watching and I noticed, as she back out of the parking spot, she had a handicap tag hanging from her rear view mirror. I thought, OK, handicapped needed help with her bags-I am good with that, but here is the stupid part. As she drove past me, I saw it. A COPD inducing cigarette hanging on her lips. Ding Ding Ding!! Helllloooo stupid, could the reason you are handicapped and hateful, is because you SMOKE!!! Hello Stupid.

It just absolutely makes shake my head and say to myself I just don't understand people!

Day One-2

Ok still day one--trying to get a handle on this blog thing. Seems pretty easy so far but sometimes I can get a bit internet dumb.

So what's on my mind today?, you ask. An assortment of things. I just want to know were the the guide book to understanding people is located? I work in the public sector and to this day I haven't gotten a frim grip on understanding why people do the stuff they do.

Side note--I wonder in Blogdom is it permissable to cuss?

I am a firm believer in that there is a plot to turn humans into nothing intellectually higher than lemurs. Every day people get up and take a healthy dose of STUPID! Come on people you have gray matter in your carnium for a reason-use it. Educate yourself!


Wow-Up on that soap box!!! Day one and I better reign myself in, have alot more days to fill up with my rants.

Hey don't be shy-got something to add or say feel free!!

Day One

Day one of my blog. They say keeping a journal is a good way of expressing feelings and thoughts to help solve problems. Well, I am going to give it a try. Maybe it will be a good thing. Never say never till you try it!